Two not so happy emails popped in my Facebook email box this week. Both of friends who felt neglected by me. I understand where they are coming from. I’m living in the moment and sometimes that’s a bit f a problem; for other people.
The first email was of a friend I’ve known for half of my life now. When I was younger and started to work at Brabants Dagblad he was a bit of a father figure for me. When I started teaching yoga he was my first student. I regard him as a very good and special friend. I left Brabants Dagblad years ago for another paper and later to work freelance as a photographer and after that as a yoga teacher. I’m really happy we stayed in contact. Having him as a friend means a lot to me.
A few weeks ago I was in the Netherlands. He was one of the first people I visited. I love to listen to all his travel stories about the old days, when there was no email or internet. He’s a retired journalist now. He has traveled a lot and is still travelling. Making him a big example for me.
The only thing is: he has this idea we emailed a lot when I was touring through Australia. We did, but I don’t recall we did it as much as he feels we did. The email I received this week was a bit ‘sour’. Just as the other email of a very special and dear friend. Both emails felt as a complaint about me not giving them enough attention through email and Facebook.
The thing is: I’m living in the moment now and at this moment I’m in India. And that might be – for them – a bit of a problem. See I fully want to experience this moment. Enjoy every second of it, because I know this moment will never come back. As all moments we have never will come back. Here, at the yoga teacher training of Sampoorna Yoga, I have Eli, Martha and Sudhir, two very knowledgeable yoga teachers, a wise philosophy teacher and all three amazing personalities I want to learn from them. Spent time with them. There are two Karma yogis I already love having close.
The students are great, going through a beautiful transformation. I would love to spent hours talking with Sean over music, with Alex over anatomy, spent more time with Nina to talk about yoga philosophy and with this amazing couple Dan and Lisa. I found a new crash test dummy I want to do more AcroYoga with. I want to give more massages to those who need it and so on. The Indian ocean is a few meters from my doorstep. The waves are great to body board. I want to share my time with these people, play in the waves. Help them, talk with them, learn from them. I don’t want to spent my time behind a computer, except for the blogging I do. Live for me, is being in the moment.
I’m sure my two friends prefer me to have my attention a hundred percent for them when I see them again and won’t like me to be on Facebook while I’m talking with them. I do hope they understand that I’m here now and want to be here. Living behind a computer or a television screen is no life for me. That kills my brain cells, makes me dull. I want to feel the blood rushing through my veins ans I want to feel alive. Now. This moment. And the only way I can do it, is to be full present. To fully live it.
I’ve spent a lot of time in hostels the last year. I see less and less people interacting. They are on there phone or computer talking with friends back home. Why travel then? Or they are talking with people they have met in a hostel they where before. So instead of interacting with the people around you, you go to a hostel and just before you leave get somebody’s Facebook name and when you can’t have ‘live’ contact you start chatting on Fabebook. Maybe it’s something for a new generation. I prefer real contact: a chat and a hug.
So for all those who feel neglected; I’m sorry. When our paths cross again I will be fully there. For now, lets drop each other a line every now and then, shut down our computer and start living in the real world and in the moment.