Riding the waves of a warm ocean, teaching yoga, doing AcroYoga, meditating, doing yoga, pranayama, seeing mother Nature at her fairest during a thunder storm, feeling the earth shake underneath me during a little earthquake, watching the stars at night, reading as long as I want, dancing with my feet in hot sand and drinking chocolate smoothies in the burning sun; I’m feeling alive, really, really alive.
People often ask me where I’m running away from. I think Matthew Kepnes gave the perfect answer in his blog Everyone Says I Am Running Away: ‘I am running away. But I am not trying to avoid life; I am just trying to avoid your life. I’m running away from your idea of the “real” world. I’m running away from office life, commuting, and weekend errands, and running towards everything the world has to offer. I’m running away from monotony, 9-to-5, rampant consumerism, and the conventional path. I am running towards the world, exotic places, new people, different cultures, and my own idea of freedom and living. I’m running away from your life with his traffic jams, nine to five jobs and nights and nights full of television. I want to live, feel nature, be one with nature, learn new languages, experience different countries and celebrate different celebrations around the world. I want to experience every culture, see every mountain, eat weird food, attend crazy festivals, meet new people, and enjoy different holidays around the world. We vagabonds, nomads, and wanderers do so because they want to experience the world, not escape some problem. We travel to experience life and live on our own terms. Life is short, and we only get to live it once. I want to look back and say I did crazy things, not say I spent my life in an office, reading travel blogs, and wishing I was exploring the world.’
Now I’m alive, I want to stay alive. And I know the real freedom is not getting rid of my chains that where formed by my yoga school and all the work that came with it, nor by having a house, a car, two cats and a lot of good friends. The real jail is in my head. It’s how I was brought up by society, by my parents, my school teachers and everybody who plays a role when kids grow up. And no; I’m not blaming my parents. I don’t want to be one of those people who feel sorry for themselves the rest of their lives, because they had bad parents. I have good ones. I have parents that did what they could. But they are a product of our society as well. A society that believes in having, instead of being. A society is afraid to live, a society where everybody is judging themselves and others and everybody is feeling a victim.
I want to break out if that system. I want to become a warrior. A warrior who fight for his freedom. Not by taking up arms against other people, against the system, but by taking up arms against my own mind. My mind that is programmed by society.
‘Being a warrior gives us an opportunity to transcend the ideal society sets for us in our own dream, our own heaven’, as Don Miquel Ruiz puts it in The Four Agreements. ‘Heaven is a place that exists in our mind. We can reach heaven while we are alive; we don’t have to wait until we die.’
To conquer the Judge and the Victim inside of us we have to live up to Four Agreements:
-Be Impeccable with your word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of the truth and love.
-Don’t take anything personally: Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
-Don’t make assumptions: Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
-Always do your best: Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
Source: Don Miquel Ruiz – The Four Agreements
I want to live up to these Four Agreements. They are the way the Toltec, an ancient group of healers who live in Mexico, freed themselves. And not only the Toltec. In all shamanic traditions; from Canada to Argentina people called themselves warriors and fought against ‘the imprint’ of the system to be free.
They way of the Toltec is the way of the yogi’s. The prison that withholds us from freedom is not outside of us, it’s inside of us. Inside our mind. And the same time heaven is not outside of us. It’s in us.
So from now on I’ll be a freedom warrior.